Isn't family supposed to support all that you do? Love you no matter what? And no matter how neurotic we may become its family that is obligated to have your back- right?? Apparently my step mother missed the "How to be a Family" guide...
It really hurts me to have to defend my choices to my family. I am 22-years-old, not married, no kids, graduated early, no obscure piercings and yet my family (i.e. STEP Mom) still doubt my decision making abilities?? Such bullshit. And now I am being semi-threatened that my little brother won't get to visit me if I move to a place where I have been wanting to move for a few years now. I did not pack up and move there with the east wind- I have taken a few years and I still want to move there so I think that was pretty damn responsible of me.
Check out this text conversation that broke me down completely after a very long day...I am such a cry baby.
Step Mom: By the way, hated Vegas, cannot stand that many low self-esteem, stupid people all at one time. Sorry but, YUCK!
Girl On The Verge: Well you can just send Sean down to visit me then! :-) Or did he not like it?
Step Mom: Never happen. Your bro said, and I quote, these girls sure don't think much of themselves. U would take a huge plunge off his mountain of perfection.
Girl On The Verge: haha. Well- it's where I'd like to be so he'll just have to love me despite my habitat choices.
Step Mom: Why there? Just curious. and he will love you no matter what.
Girl On The Verge: just something on my to-do list I guess...just really want to be there now while I am young and I can.
Step Mom: Seems like it could lose its appeal pretty quick. Imagine it is a whole lot harder to get out of there than get in.
Girl On The Verge: Well I'm pretty set on giving it a try.
Step Mom: Honey loving you has nothing to do with agreeing with you. Live your life. We'll deal.
Girl On The Verge: I will- just sucks to get belittled by family...or feel belittled.
Step Monster: Never the intention and I think you know I would never do that to you.
Girl On The Verge: Yes. but I mean- i"m not married- have no kids or obscure piercings- I think for a 22-year-old I've made some decent decisions so I don't think I'm too far off with where I'd like to go next. I'm willing to move anywhere but if no job offer by June then I'm heading to Vegas so at least I have a plan for myself and don't get stuck here.
Step Monster: again, we don't have to agree with you to love you. is that belittling? No. Do we think Vegas is a good choice? No. But, you are an adult and you get to make your own choices. pretty straight deal here. You do what you want. WE get to decide to expose Sean to what is appropriate. Easy squeezy.
Girl On The Verge: Cool.
The "WE" bullshit really riled me up. My dad has NEVER said he doesn't agree with any choice I have ever made...and if he does and didn't say anything than that is between him and me and our non-existent relationship that she doesn't need to get into. If it weren't for my little brother who I love dearly- I would leave that half of my family and say to hell with them. Seventeen years of this hearing her opinions...so over it.
And so wrong to shelter your son from your own family- we are not crazies. I am not going to Vegas to become a stripper and get a cocaine addiction. I am a responsible adult who yes, lets loose every once in a while but not THAT loose. Give me a break. If my brother came to visit it's not like I'd take him to the clubs...get real.
It saddens me that my older homosexual brother is not allowed to be himself around my little brother because heaven forbid my little brother see a gay person. And now he will not get to see where his big sister lives because heaven forbid there are some casinos and nightclubs there. So sad. So wrong. So HER.
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